How are you?

To all the people who ask me ever so politely "how are you?"

Do you really want to know?

I'm exhausted. I am physically drained. Emotionally absent.

My belly hurts, my back hurts, my gallbladder hurts. My feet are swollen and restless.

I want to sleep, I want to soak in a hot tub.

I am stressed about the park, stressed about the shower, stressed about everything.

I feel like I am no longer in control of my life or my body and I do not like it.

I am looking forward to this baby. I am reassured by his movements. I am proud of my size but do NOT like the stretch marks.

Thank God for this precious child. But Lord, please help me get through the next few weeks... I need Your strength. Amen.