I really miss Ashley today. It has been really hard the last few days. I don't know if it's because I'm pregnant or what but all I can think about is how small and helpless she was and all the pain and suffering she went through. How scared she must have been. I miss her and I wish I could do something to touch her but she's gone so there isn't anything I can do and it's so hard. It's so hard to be the mother of a child who suffered and passed away because there is nothing mommy can do to make it better and that's what mommies are supposed to do, right?
When you love someone so deeply  
They become your life  
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside  
Blindly I imagined I could  
Keep you under glass  
Now I understand to hold you  
I must open up my hands and watch you rise  
Chorus 
Spread you wings and prepare to fly  
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)  
Fly abandonedly into the sun  
If you should return to me  
We truly were meant to be, so spread your wings and fly  
Butterfly  
Verse 2 
I have learned that beauty  
Has to flourish in the light  
Wild horses run unbridled  
Or their spirit dies  
You have given me the courage  
To be all that I can  
And I truly feel your heart will  
Lead you back to me when you're  
Ready to land  
Chorus 
Spread your wings and prepare to fly  
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)  
Fly abandonedly into the sun  
If you should return to me, we truly were meant to be  
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)  
Butterfly (butterfly)  
Bridge 
I can't pretend these tears  
Aren't overflowing steadily  
I can't prevent this hurt from  
Almost overtaking me  
But I will stand and say goodbye (stand and say goodbye)  
For you'll never be mine  
Until you know the way it feels to fly  
Chorus 
Spread your wings and prepare to fly  
For you have become a butterfly (Oooh)  
Fly abandonedly into the sun (fly to the sun)  
If you should return to me (I will know you're mine)  
We truly were meant to be (spread your wings and fly)  
So spread your wings and fly  
Butterfly (my butterfly)  
Chorus 
Spread your wings and prepare to fly  
For you have become a butterfly  
Fly abandonedly into the sun  
If you should return to me  
We truly were meant to be (you and I)  
So spread your wings and fly (spread your wings and fly)  
Butterfly  
So flutter through the sky  
Butterfly  
Fly  
Spread your wings and fly  
Butterfly.
 
 
Oh, Niki, I din't know that you have an 'angel'. I am so sorry. I really can't begin to understand what you are going through missing her. But if I was there, I'd just hug you today as hard as I can.Peace be with you Mommy. Love you.
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